OF ME

It's been four months and I'm feeling more whole than I've been since then.

I talked to you for the first time again today and I felt okay.

I'm sad you still feel depressed but there's that part of me that likes that you're depressed.
That part of me hurts less if you're depressed and not happy without me.
That part of me thinks maybe you'll be with me once again when you're not.
That part of me thinks you can't be with me solely because you're still depressed.

And I realize that I'm sad you're not okay.
That I want you to be okay.
That I want both of us to be okay.
That I'm finally feeling a bit okay.

That part of me
That part of my soul
will always love you,
Be there for you,
Care for you,
Breathe for you, and
Be you.

But that part of me is no longer me
And I finally see that.